I mean... yeah. Usually bravery is just a label you apply after trying something really effin' reckless and it working. Sacrifice is when it ain't.
[#I'm14andthisisdeep]
Shit this stuff can't ever be easy, huh?
Usually speakin' it's easier to just let your heart do the talkin'. That's how impulse works, right?
Angry at myself, yeah. I kinda think all the times I've been really into people, I was probably not bein' true to myself? Or maybe I was, I dunno. Maybe it's just all bets are off since I've never really thought anything could work out between me and another guy. But thinkin' about that, maybe I always did? Just told myself I didn't.
really? idk dude I wouldnt beat yourself up about that. maybe you really were into them at the time, maybe you might not be as much now. shit just kinda happens and youre still figuring stuff out right? it always kinda sucks in retrospect but you couldntve known better. I mean I feel kinda frustrated about just kinda not thinkin about how I felt about ryo for as long as I did but whatre you gonna do at least youre startin to get it figured out now
But hindsights 20/20 anyway, so like. Sure, it musta been frustrating to look back on it and be all like SHIT DUDE WHY DIDNT I FEEL THIS WAY or like WHY DIDNT I KNOW I FEEL THIS WAY about 'em, but... yeah. It's done, right? You gotta forge a path forward, not backward. Which honestly, same
spendin too much time dwelling on the pastll just keep you from focusing on what you should do next
well if you realized that you do, like yeah thats usually the next step, if you wanted to do anything about it and it sounds like you do
its never not gonna be scary dude puttin yourself in a place where stuff could get weird or change is terrifying but if you wanna act on how you feel, you gotta do it because hey, maybe he feels the same way and it all works out?
dude I'm literally in the middle of this whole similar thing so idk what kinda advice I can give
you kiss him I guess?? if you both want to?
[And other stuff, but... part of him doubts everyone moves as quickly as he and Ryo had. Uh.]
not much has to change you can just hang out the same as you usually do you just know that you both like one another like I said, it doesnt feel that different...
Whatdya mean you're like the frontier pioneer in ye old gold rush. Except the gold rush is just getting guys to kiss you and you set out on the trail a full year before I did. I gotta learn from my senpai explorers y'know?
[Didn't Ryo and Akira have sexual tension before even coming here? That was bound to happen. Maybe? Probably.
Is there a storm cloud reading this text right now?]
But that's comfortin'
Don't really want much to change anyway
I just want him to know that like. Y'know. I think about him a lot and
I'd pretty much do anything to protect him if it came down to it
[Holy shit... he's so glad no one's around to see him stare at his smartwatch absolutely flustered at that comment. He rubs against his ear with his wrist. Man.
Akira's pretty great.]
Yeah I guess I mean
These lips are ready for puckering
Gonna pucker them mad tight
So puckered that it's like I ate somethin' sour
And then kiss...
Man this sure is weird
Also hey
You're pretty effin cool man. Like. Shit, I wish we knew each other when we were younger. Maybe we'd both have bfs a lot sooner. Or end up in juvie together. I'm pretty cool with either.
[This is unfortunately just a side-effect of being around Akira; the guy has no inhibitions when it comes to displays of affection either verbal or physical, and this is often the result.
He's been around Ryo so long, he forgets other people have more pronounced reactions to this type of thing.]
haha okay okay woah there tiger yeah just take it one step at a time and I'm sure youll be fine it is kinda weird at first though yeah
[Because sometimes those steps go a lot faster than you would think and then you're left in the aftermath with a lot to process, mentally and emotionally.
Speaking of emotionally - he's always a little surprised at open declarations like that, being used to someone on Ryo's speed (as in: none at all), but... it's nice. He's grinning ear to ear as he replies.]
thanks dude I think youre really cool too though tbh things wouldve been a lot different if youdve met me when I was younger I'm pretty sure neither of those things wouldve happened but it wouldve been interesting at least
[Dude, you can't just insinuate things to Ryuji like that. His entire world is the whole perception equals reality type of thing, and besides. If you're going to hypeman him up, he's gon' be hyped. He's too easy to both excite and play along with dumb antics.
But either way, that need to process things will probably come a lot slower. Intimacy for Ryuji right now is holding hands- anything more than that and he'd probably crash, burn, and then be magically reborn. Thanks, station.]
So what is the suggested timeline? How does this shit work anyway
[Rip.]
Yeah? Thanks, dude! As long as I can bring a little spontaneity and enjoyment to your life, either way, I'm pretty chill with any outcome.
[He's just not used to following people flying off the handle like you, Ryuji... He will learn soon enough.
But that's probably for the best. Especially since Ryuji and his potential suitor didn't have over ten years of very intense and complicated ~*emotions to work through all at once.]
I'm not really sure I can suggest that for you it could be totally fuckin different because the situations are different just do what feels right and dont push yourself to someplace you might feel weird just because you feel like you should or you gotta if you do that and the other persons into it then youre golden
[They might be getting ahead of themselves, huh.]
well hell yeah of course this place would get way too boring without a little unpredictability in fact I think people are gonna rely on us to keep things from gettin too stale tbh
Aight, pretty good advice all around. I'll just... uh...
Continue bein' myself and letting things happen the way that they do and hope for the best, yeah?
Dude I don't think anything here could possibly go stale. I bet in like a month we're gonna be invited to some bullshit ghost wedding that we can crash.
yeah good. sounds good and if you ever need help just let me know :) I can talk you up so much this guyll feel like a damn idiot for not goin out with you on the spot
ghost wedding? yeah that sounds pretty sweet actually as long as they were cool ghosts they would probably throw a really fuckin cool wedding reception either that or theyd try to kill us
Aight man I'll let you know if I need a wingman. You'll be the first one I call, hands down. Can't even avoid the glaringly good vibe I'm gettin from it right now
And uh
Yeah
They'd try to kill us
I mean look what they've done already, you think they'd want some bone bags showing up and eating their ghost cake without their ghost permission and gettin' all drunked up as shit on their ghost booze?
yessss good I'll wingman the hell out of you. the guy wont know what hit him
I mean yeah probably hey I was just tryin to give them the benefit of the doubt?
but youre right if theyre ghosts though this is probably their place right? they mightve been the people livin here before we all showed up so were kinda bein bad guests I really think we should just try to talk it out with em
I mean if you want to we could do that I can be very menacing if I wanna be you could be the knight in shining armor for him hed swoon so hard neither of you would know what to do
[Dave could actually possibly kick Akira's ass. Jury's out on that.]
never really talked to a ghost before usually if somethin wants to talk to you it will just make it happen
[Or it'll just want to kill you, and it'll try to make that happen.]
IDK dude what if you get like SO MENACING that I wind up needing to be saved too? Then it'll kinda backfire and I dunno how that'd look if I'm just shivering in my mag boots like some sorta dweeeeeeeeb
[Possibly. He can stop time and there's not much you can do to get around that unless you get one good hit in. You two should wrastle.]
Screw it I'm gonna make a weegee board
We're gonna get a talk mano to mano and settle this shit up like men
dude I'd let you win would you really be that scared if you knew that
[Come on, Ryuji. You haven't even seen him at his scariest yet. ):
But, yes, Akira wants to wrassle everyone.]
is that how thats spelled
yeah sure I'll help you with it maybe we can finally tell the ghosts to fuck off like its not like we have any control over whats going on so they might as well just get used to us bein here with them
Considerin' we've already established the only way I'd kick your butt is if you pretend that I'm kickin' your butt, then yeah.
Although it's kinda convoluted. Maybe a more direct approach would be better. I'll work on it. Your confidence is gonna stick with me though. I'll keep it close to my spleen. That's where that stuff comes from, right? Gall? Hahahah
Uhh
I dunno. I think it's weegee? That's how it sounds when you say it. Like Waluigi. But less bizarro. Actually, more bizarro. WALUIGI'S HAUNTED MANSION. HELL YEAH.
Either way, if you're gonna be menacing? Those are definitely the things you should bare your fangs out and just pump your chest all macho man like. It'll work. Maybe.
ah man youve already given up? but I guess thats fair
dude I dont fucking know what the hell is a spleen
[Ryo is definitely the brains of this pair.]
I dont know what youre talking about anymore who is waluigi is that supposed to be luigi??
[Those games definitely exist in his universe, but Akira had never really had access to too many games systems growing up. So he knows about Mario and Luigi from cultural osmosis, but the niche Mario universe characters escape him.]
oh dont worry if we actually do see a ghost I'm gonna beat the shit out of it
I dunno either, I just like the way spleen sounds. I think it's somewhere near your stomach but maybe that's a question meant for someone waaaaay smarter than me. If it dies, you die, though. Pretty sure of that. Maybe.
[Guess who scraped by with a C- in biology?
This dude over here.]
Waluigi is like. Luigi's evil bro. You know how we all have evil bros? They walk around with mustaches or goatees and look like opposite us'es. That's just like, a universal fact dude
I dunno how you beat the shit out of a ghost though. Isn't their whole thing like... being translucent 'n shit?
[I now know everything about the spleen because I listened to a Sawbones episode about it today.
Anyways. Akira still doesn't know shit.]
maybe?? I am not likin the sound of that maybe how bout we try to keep all internal organs in tact just in case
[Akira's grades were about the same, tbh...]
uh cant say I've ever heard that I'm tryin to imagine you with an evil mustache and goatee and I dont know how I feel about that
they only want you to think you cant touch em bc if that was true how the hell would they be able to do anything to us?? nah its gotta be equal ground so you just gotta not fall for their tricks and punch em in the nose
[He's never fought a ghost, so he's applying demon logic here. Probably doesn't cross over as much as he wants it to.]
[Holy shit, I need to get on that podcast then. Time to learn about the body, I guess.
And Ryuji doesn't know anything about bodies either. Heh.]
Sounds like a pain in the ass. I'd have to face bleach or end up like one of those douchenozzles from the early 2000s that wear sunglasses backwards and wander around all like BROOOOO
Uh
Wait, would that actually be my evil twin
Wth
Yeah man I dunno punching something in the nose when it doesn't have a nose seems kinda futile. Maybe you need one of those ghostbuster vacuums to give em the good ole succ y'know
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[#I'm14andthisisdeep]
Shit this stuff can't ever be easy, huh?
Usually speakin' it's easier to just let your heart do the talkin'. That's how impulse works, right?
Angry at myself, yeah. I kinda think all the times I've been really into people, I was probably not bein' true to myself? Or maybe I was, I dunno. Maybe it's just all bets are off since I've never really thought anything could work out between me and another guy. But thinkin' about that, maybe I always did? Just told myself I didn't.
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damn dude
yeah
[Ryuji's full of surprises.]
nah
that would defeat the point probably
really? idk dude I wouldnt beat yourself up about that. maybe you really were into them at the time, maybe you might not be as much now. shit just kinda happens and youre still figuring stuff out right?
it always kinda sucks in retrospect but you couldntve known better. I mean I feel kinda frustrated about just kinda not thinkin about how I felt about ryo for as long as I did but
whatre you gonna do
at least youre startin to get it figured out now
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But hindsights 20/20 anyway, so like. Sure, it musta been frustrating to look back on it and be all like SHIT DUDE WHY DIDNT I FEEL THIS WAY or like WHY DIDNT I KNOW I FEEL THIS WAY about 'em, but... yeah. It's done, right? You gotta forge a path forward, not backward. Which honestly, same
I dunno
I guess I owned up to liking him
I don't even know what I'm s'posed to do next
Tell him? Shit that sounds
Absolutely effin terrible
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well if you realized that you do, like
yeah thats usually the next step, if you wanted to do anything about it
and it sounds like you do
its never not gonna be scary dude
puttin yourself in a place where stuff could get weird or change is terrifying
but if you wanna act on how you feel, you gotta do it
because hey, maybe he feels the same way and it all works out?
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And if he does like me back
I didn't even think what you're s'posed to do AFTER THAT
Why am I like
The most unequipped person ever for this shit
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you kiss him I guess?? if you both want to?
[And other stuff, but... part of him doubts everyone moves as quickly as he and Ryo had. Uh.]
not much has to change
you can just hang out the same as you usually do
you just know that you both like one another
like I said, it doesnt feel that different...
[For him, at least.]
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[Didn't Ryo and Akira have sexual tension before even coming here? That was bound to happen. Maybe? Probably.
Is there a storm cloud reading this text right now?]
But that's comfortin'
Don't really want much to change anyway
I just want him to know that like. Y'know. I think about him a lot and
I'd pretty much do anything to protect him if it came down to it
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I'll try to help when I can but first we gotta get you a guy you can kiss right?
[shhh we don't discuss the gay storm cloud that's definitely reading all of these texts, if not now, certainly later.]
aw
ryuji
thats so fuckin cute haha
I think this guyd have to be a moron not to appreciate that
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Akira's pretty great.]
Yeah I guess I mean
These lips are ready for puckering
Gonna pucker them mad tight
So puckered that it's like I ate somethin' sour
And then kiss...
Man this sure is weird
Also hey
You're pretty effin cool man. Like. Shit, I wish we knew each other when we were younger. Maybe we'd both have bfs a lot sooner. Or end up in juvie together. I'm pretty cool with either.
this is so cute i hate it
He's been around Ryo so long, he forgets other people have more pronounced reactions to this type of thing.]
haha okay okay
woah there tiger
yeah just take it one step at a time and I'm sure youll be fine
it is kinda weird at first though yeah
[Because sometimes those steps go a lot faster than you would think and then you're left in the aftermath with a lot to process, mentally and emotionally.
Speaking of emotionally - he's always a little surprised at open declarations like that, being used to someone on Ryo's speed (as in: none at all), but... it's nice. He's grinning ear to ear as he replies.]
thanks dude I think youre really cool too
though tbh things wouldve been a lot different if youdve met me when I was younger
I'm pretty sure neither of those things wouldve happened but
it wouldve been interesting at least
i, in fact, love it
But either way, that need to process things will probably come a lot slower. Intimacy for Ryuji right now is holding hands- anything more than that and he'd probably crash, burn, and then be magically reborn. Thanks, station.]
So what is the suggested timeline? How does this shit work anyway
[Rip.]
Yeah? Thanks, dude! As long as I can bring a little spontaneity and enjoyment to your life, either way, I'm pretty chill with any outcome.
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But that's probably for the best. Especially since Ryuji and his potential suitor didn't have over ten years of very intense and complicated ~*emotions to work through all at once.]
I'm not really sure I can suggest that for you
it could be totally fuckin different because the situations are different
just do what feels right and dont push yourself to someplace you might feel weird just because you feel like you should or you gotta
if you do that and the other persons into it then youre golden
[They might be getting ahead of themselves, huh.]
well hell yeah of course
this place would get way too boring without a little unpredictability
in fact I think people are gonna rely on us to keep things from gettin too stale tbh
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Continue bein' myself and letting things happen the way that they do and hope for the best, yeah?
Dude I don't think anything here could possibly go stale. I bet in like a month we're gonna be invited to some bullshit ghost wedding that we can crash.
Like in that movie
But cooler
Bc we're cooler
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good. sounds good
and if you ever need help just let me know :)
I can talk you up so much this guyll feel like a damn idiot for not goin out with you on the spot
ghost wedding?
yeah that sounds pretty sweet actually
as long as they were cool ghosts
they would probably throw a really fuckin cool wedding reception
either that or theyd try to kill us
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And uh
Yeah
They'd try to kill us
I mean look what they've done already, you think they'd want some bone bags showing up and eating their ghost cake without their ghost permission and gettin' all drunked up as shit on their ghost booze?
[Why does anyone let these two talk.]
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good
I'll wingman the hell out of you. the guy wont know what hit him
I mean
yeah probably
hey I was just tryin to give them the benefit of the doubt?
but youre right
if theyre ghosts though this is probably their place right? they mightve been the people livin here before we all showed up
so were kinda bein bad guests
I really think we should just try to talk it out with em
[why indeed]
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Or maybe you should
Then I can swoop in like a big brawny meat shield and take the blow for him
Naaaaaaaah I'm just kiddin' I know what you mean
Anyway, if you know how to speak to ghosties, by all means dude pencil me in for that wicked ass seance
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idk if he could recover from that
I mean if you want to we could do that
I can be very menacing if I wanna be
you could be the knight in shining armor for him
hed swoon so hard neither of you would know what to do
[Dave could actually possibly kick Akira's ass. Jury's out on that.]
never really talked to a ghost before
usually if somethin wants to talk to you it will just make it happen
[Or it'll just want to kill you, and it'll try to make that happen.]
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[Possibly. He can stop time and there's not much you can do to get around that unless you get one good hit in. You two should wrastle.]
Screw it I'm gonna make a weegee board
We're gonna get a talk mano to mano and settle this shit up like men
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would you really be that scared if you knew that
[Come on, Ryuji. You haven't even seen him at his scariest yet. ):
But, yes, Akira wants to wrassle everyone.]
is that how thats spelled
yeah sure
I'll help you with it
maybe we can finally tell the ghosts to fuck off
like its not like we have any control over whats going on so they might as well just get used to us bein here with them
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Although it's kinda convoluted. Maybe a more direct approach would be better. I'll work on it. Your confidence is gonna stick with me though. I'll keep it close to my spleen. That's where that stuff comes from, right? Gall? Hahahah
Uhh
I dunno. I think it's weegee? That's how it sounds when you say it. Like Waluigi. But less bizarro. Actually, more bizarro. WALUIGI'S HAUNTED MANSION. HELL YEAH.
Either way, if you're gonna be menacing? Those are definitely the things you should bare your fangs out and just pump your chest all macho man like. It'll work. Maybe.
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youve already given up?
but I guess thats fair
dude I dont fucking know
what the hell is a spleen
[Ryo is definitely the brains of this pair.]
I dont know what youre talking about anymore
who is waluigi
is that supposed to be luigi??
[Those games definitely exist in his universe, but Akira had never really had access to too many games systems growing up. So he knows about Mario and Luigi from cultural osmosis, but the niche Mario universe characters escape him.]
oh dont worry if we actually do see a ghost I'm gonna beat the shit out of it
[Or try (and fail).]
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[Guess who scraped by with a C- in biology?
This dude over here.]
Waluigi is like. Luigi's evil bro. You know how we all have evil bros? They walk around with mustaches or goatees and look like opposite us'es. That's just like, a universal fact dude
I dunno how you beat the shit out of a ghost though. Isn't their whole thing like... being translucent 'n shit?
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Anyways. Akira still doesn't know shit.]
maybe??
I am not likin the sound of that maybe
how bout we try to keep all internal organs in tact just in case
[Akira's grades were about the same, tbh...]
uh
cant say I've ever heard that
I'm tryin to imagine you with an evil mustache and goatee and I dont know how I feel about that
they only want you to think you cant touch em
bc if that was true how the hell would they be able to do anything to us??
nah its gotta be equal ground so you just gotta not fall for their tricks and punch em in the nose
[He's never fought a ghost, so he's applying demon logic here. Probably doesn't cross over as much as he wants it to.]
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And Ryuji doesn't know anything about bodies either. Heh.]
Sounds like a pain in the ass. I'd have to face bleach or end up like one of those douchenozzles from the early 2000s that wear sunglasses backwards and wander around all like BROOOOO
Uh
Wait, would that actually be my evil twin
Wth
Yeah man I dunno punching something in the nose when it doesn't have a nose seems kinda futile. Maybe you need one of those ghostbuster vacuums to give em the good ole succ y'know
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